Dash ([info]ehsadidas07) wrote,
2005-09-25 06:27:00
  • Mood: stressed
  • Music: Young Jeezy - And Then What

where do i start? im just so tired of life right now. idk what to do, i just lost about a grand in pool and why?? cuz i have a fucking gambling problem. on the way home (i walked) i tried to figure out why i gamble even tho i'm pretty sure i'll lose and while punching everything in sight i started to realize its really one of the only things that make me happy. i honestly think that u cant be happy w/o money. then i got to thinking again and the only two things that ever made me happy were money and "love". it just makes life seem like a waste of time. i could finish highschool this week and go to college in the spring but why and what for?, its so fucking pointless. i dont want to spend my life working a 9-5 just to make 100,000 a year. why do i want to slave around for 40 hrs a week just to make a decent living. i just wish i was born into money to where i wouldnt have to worry about shit like this all the time, to where i dont have to work, buy my own everything... but i do. and "love", its something that everyone wants but they cant have. you know why? cuz everyone is two-faced. you may not try to be or even be that much but i guarentee u lie more then u think u do. all the relationships ive seen that have actually lasted awhile are because one person fucks around and the other one is in denial. we either make ourselves happy at someone elses misery or we believe we're happy when we're not. idk if im really making since now but i needed somewhere to vent and theres not anyone i can trust that i can call this early. i could go on and on but i think im just going to take some tylenol pm and a couple shots of vodka to calm myslef down and go to bed. so im sorry if ur reading this and ill try to make my next entry more plesant

Dash.


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[info]on_my_way_x

September 25 2005, 15:00:46 UTC 6 years ago

Dash.. it's Jaime.. I feel bad for you. If you ever need to talk.. i'm here. Plus I was up at 6 this morning. lol.

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[info]ehsadidas07

September 25 2005, 21:50:57 UTC 6 years ago

lol well next time i get in a drunk emotional rage i'll call ya

[info]on_my_way_x

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[info]false_emotionsx

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[info]ehsadidas07

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[info]false_emotionsx

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[info]x_faded_tears

September 25 2005, 15:03:50 UTC 6 years ago

Damn Dash.. i don't even know what to say. i'm sorry everything is going as shitty as it is for you. you don't deserve that. i know what you mean with some of that though. sometimes i feel like money is everything too. & love.. what is it anymore these days? people throw it around like it's nothing. i'm sorry & i hope you feel better soon.

cheer up & smile! =)

love ya kid,
Lynds

[info]ehsadidas07

September 25 2005, 21:51:28 UTC 6 years ago

thanx linzee

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[info]xtreblexclefx

September 25 2005, 16:01:55 UTC 6 years ago

you can call me.
you were right about the kid i WAS dating

[info]ehsadidas07

September 25 2005, 21:48:56 UTC 6 years ago

lol im always right

[info]farfrom0rdinary

September 25 2005, 17:03:06 UTC 6 years ago

dash! why the hell didnt you call me...i woulda picked you up just like the other times...im sorry all this is going on right now. all i can say is that if you need to talk, or just get away for awhile, just call me up...you have the number.
i love ya kid...try to cheer up!

[info]ehsadidas07

September 25 2005, 21:49:21 UTC 6 years ago

i didnt really need a ride just some time to think

[info]xemotionis_dead

September 25 2005, 17:32:56 UTC 6 years ago

You're not supposed to drink and take meds i thought

[info]x_unspoken_love

September 25 2005, 17:58:08 UTC 6 years ago

thats what i thought too little h

[info]ehsadidas07

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[info]fall_away_x

September 25 2005, 18:27:37 UTC 6 years ago

You've vented to me before.
You can do it again.

[info]fall_away_x

September 25 2005, 18:28:22 UTC 6 years ago

PS - My little advice now. :)

You underestimate life and the joys it brings. Maybe not now, but soon.

[info]ehsadidas07

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[info]xx_hopeless

September 25 2005, 20:20:34 UTC 6 years ago

Don't be so down on life, talk to someone, anyone. I'm sure they'd listen to what you have to say. You have the wrong perception of things just because you've had bad experiences.

[info]ehsadidas07

September 26 2005, 00:32:40 UTC 6 years ago

maybe

Anonymous

September 25 2005, 21:26:05 UTC 6 years ago

hey dash-
we dont really know each other all that well, but when i met u, you seemed like a great kid and i really liked ya. and listen i used to be like you. its freaky how much u remind you of myself. a year ago i was going through a really dark and scary stage of depression and i did the weirdest things. like in my sleep i would walk in the middle of the night and start to cross busy streets. i was seriously very suicidal. i almost died once and have numerous scars from the whole ordeal...inside and out. but now things have turned around big time for me and i really could care less about money or drugs or alchol. drinking and partying are for the lonely, and i couldnt be happier staying home friday and saturday nights with my close friends. i figure that on my 40th birthday if i can say that i've loved and been loved by others and helped change someone's life even if it's a small way, ill be good.my advice- go to church. no one's gonna judge you. just get involved and everything will turn around. love ya.

[info]ehsadidas07

September 26 2005, 00:34:00 UTC 6 years ago

well thanx, i doubt im going to church tho. but tell me who u r or im me sometime

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[info]lilsepdancer08

September 25 2005, 22:43:30 UTC 6 years ago

dash thare are many problems in life.. and i know you dont wanna hear "oo im sry or ull be okay or w/e" cause everyones guna wanna say that. and i gues all i hafta say is that we all have our troubles in life, and we all wonder why were even living at this point. i so wish that i coulda been born into a wealthy family so i didnt hafta do some of the stuff i do to be able to pay for things. but o well i gues. i duno.. ive been thinkin about somethings lately that have been wondering on and all that stuff.
but hey if yah ever needa talk i am pretty good at listening to ppl,from what ive heard. and not sayin you hafta tell me anything cause i would totaly understand if you wouldnt wanna but just thought id tell yah im here if yah do need someone to spill on.
well thats all i got.
Krista

[info]ehsadidas07

September 26 2005, 00:50:24 UTC 6 years ago

i think im alright now

[info]nikkilee4567

September 25 2005, 23:07:12 UTC 6 years ago

DASH!!! we need to hangout again... like that one night at Chris's house... your cool to talk to.. we used to be like best friends.. then it changed but you need to go to school and college.. i used to tell you everything so you can always call me or we can hangout..
love you
nikki
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[info]ehsadidas07

September 26 2005, 00:51:19 UTC 6 years ago

i was so fucked up that night, i'll give u a call later thursday and maybe we can hang out this weekend

[info]miss_lexi_lu

September 26 2005, 01:02:21 UTC 6 years ago

dash i miss talkin to ya kid! n ur entry really made me think...thanx <3 lex

[info]ehsadidas07

September 26 2005, 01:13:38 UTC 6 years ago

np. give me a call sometime

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[info]ehsadidas07

September 26 2005, 03:28:49 UTC 6 years ago

i doubt u were up that early

[info]iluvnikkilee

September 26 2005, 19:32:31 UTC 6 years ago

yeah dude love sure does suck lol.

fuckit. we should start hangin out again cuz i havent hungout w/ you in like 88 years

call me sometime man

peace

[info]ehsadidas07

September 26 2005, 20:20:47 UTC 6 years ago

i'll get ahold of u this weekend if im not scheduled to work

[info]fuckyourcouch

September 27 2005, 02:42:27 UTC 6 years ago

You grimey ass dirty ass complaining ass nigger lol

[info]x_katie_lo0_x

September 27 2005, 02:45:29 UTC 6 years ago

you are fucking mean.
nigger.

jk =D

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but dash. im pretty sure everything'll get better.

[info]ehsadidas07

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[info]xbrittney_babex

September 27 2005, 23:08:42 UTC 6 years ago

Dash its brittney...
you made a lot of sense...and i feel for you, honestly. i can relate how you feel on somethings..not the whole love thing cause ive never been in love before but about the whole sometimes you feel like life is a waste of time and how everyone is two faced, well i completly know what you mean! i hate it when ppl talk shit and say how they hate ppl being hypocrits and twofaced but yea everyone is its just the matter of who does it more or not.. i know what you mean its just hard to explain but if you need anyone to talk to im here for you!!

[info]ehsadidas07

September 28 2005, 22:55:41 UTC 6 years ago

yeah it is pretty tough to explain. i'd talk to u but i dont know how to get ahold of u

[info]secretskeptsafe

September 29 2005, 23:46:57 UTC 6 years ago

hey u can always call me if u need to talk about something.

[info]ehsadidas07

September 29 2005, 23:51:25 UTC 6 years ago

i would but its not like u ever answer

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[info]eastsiderbaby

November 30 2005, 02:37:04 UTC 6 years ago

you could have called alot of ppl!even me :)
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